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Wednesday, September 12, 2018

What is Multiple Myeloma - TANCIT

There's a New Cancer (intiative) In Town

Multiple myeloma is a rare disease that represents about two percent of all cancers.1

Because it's rare, many patients haven't heard of it at diagnosis, which can make it even more overwhelming. Learning more about the disease can help you and your family know what to expect and feel more in control.2https://www.myelomaexplained.com/what-is-multiple-myeloma/


What is multiple myeloma?

Multiple myeloma is a rare, incurable blood cancer of the plasma cells, a type of white blood cell which originates in the bone marrow.3,4 Plasma cells produce antibodies that help fight infection.4
Cancerous plasma cells are known as multiple myeloma cells.4 They create abnormal antibodies, called M proteins, which offer no benefit to the body.5 As multiple myeloma cells multiply they crowd out normal plasma cells, which can lead to a number of signs and symptoms.5



For more information: https://50hoops.org and https://themmrf.org



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Thursday, February 11, 2016

The Woman at the Well, with A Situation feat Bishop T.D. Jakes



A private matter; Woman to Woman on a whole new level.Whatever happened Barbara, this is Shirley…….. Women who creep OPP syndrome


Conversation With the Samaritan Woman

John 4:7-244:7 A Samaritan woman came to draw water. Jesus said to her, “Give me some water to drink.” 4:8 A Situation

4:13 Jesus replied, “Everyone who drinks some of this water will be thirsty again. 4:14 But whoever drinks some of the water that I will give him will never be thirsty again, but the water that I will give him will become in him a fountain of water springing up to eternal life.” 4:15 The woman said to him, “Sir, give me this water, so that I will not be thirsty or have to come here to draw water.” 4:16 He said to her, “Go call your husband and come back here.” 4:17 The woman replied, “I have no husband.” Jesus said to her, “Right you are when you said, ‘I have no husband, 4:18 for you have had five husbands, and the man you are living with now is not your husband. This you said truthfully!”   A Situation....
4:21 Jesus said to her, “Believe me, woman, a time is coming when you will worship the Father neither on this mountain nor in Jerusalem. 4:22 You people worship what you do not know. We worship what we know, because salvation is from the Jews. 4:23 But a time is coming – and now is here – when the true worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and truth, for the Father seeks such people to be his worshipers. 4:24 God is spirit, and the people who worship him must worship in spirit and truth
Many real women have had at least one indiscretion where she didn’t want to fall for or become somebody’s mistress, which often always results in a broken heart on all sides, and yes the family does suffer through the crisis. Yet as I was growing up the black women in my community handled these matters so indiscreetly that you still spoke with respect to an, Aunties, best girlfriend or Ms. Gotchaman from across the street whose always having lots of different guys around.. my childhood memories.. Another time I can remember another sister taking a wine bottle wrapped in her man’s boxer shorts and throwing it through the mistress patio door shattering the glass and then slashing tires…. He moved out it was over and only a few us knew what had happened loved her through the pain and humiliation. The woman knew who did it but never could identify anything but the drawers..

I recall my mother demonstrating what kiss my ass meant using sign language to Ms. Gotchaman.. no words were ever spoken, so you mean from my childhood trauma of watching mother bend over pull her panties down and tell another woman kiss her ass she thought was sleeping with my father, which still brings me to tears in laughter at this very moment. She or I could have sued Ms. Gotchaman for $$$.. It would have paid for a nice college tuition at best.

No I’m not feeling that lawsuit the NBA player’s spouse is claiming against Gabrielle Union even if it does stink to all hell. Gabby was wrong but who are we to judge, he/she who is without sin please cast the first stone and let GOD be all of their judge, its painful but why draw more pain by making it a public shame.


Does anybody come out the winner, nope I don’t think so and the kids continue to be humiliated privately about a public scandal. Celebrities are human beings who also wake up with the same requirements except they have exposure to more tangible things.. Feelings and desires are usually human they suffer too. Chris Brown still struggling back from a very public private matter.

Where do we draw the line between what is for public consumption vs. private enlightenment; why do we enjoy consuming other folks misery; scripture points to the fact that we ought to pray when any of us suffers this level of public humiliation all parties need encouragement and for folks to stop acting like you never been a “tramp” once or flirted hard with somebody else’s man.


Personally, I’ve been on either side if you check out this chick flick “It’s Complicated that is the perfect analogy. A wife who becomes the ex-husband’s mistress; once scorned then karma allows her to experience hoe dum and she loves it! We’ve all shared a moment and if you’ve haven’t chances do go around. For some Agony&Ectasy that some painful growth betrayal, then forgiveness.

The experts in the law and the Pharisees brought a woman who had been caught committing adultery. They made her stand in front of them 8:4 and said to Jesus, “Teacher, this woman was caught in the very act of adultery. 8:5 In the law Moses commanded us to stone to death such women. What then do you say?” 8:6 (Now they were asking this in an attempt to trap him, so that they could bring charges against him.) Jesus bent down and wrote on the ground with his finger. 8:7 when they persisted in asking him, he stood up straight and replied, “Whoever among you is guiltless may be the first to throw a stone at her.” 8:8 then he bent over again and wrote on the ground.

8:9 Now when they heard this, they began to drift away one at a time, starting with the older ones, until Jesus was left alone with the woman standing before him. 8:10 Jesus stood up straight and said to her, “Woman, where are they? Did no one condemn you?” 8:11 She replied, “No one, Lord.” And Jesus said, “I do not condemn you either. Go, and from now on do not sin any more.”

God Bless and Show some love for yourself be considerate of others

Peace


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Tuesday, September 15, 2015

Heaven Help Us



“I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me.”   Galatians 2:20


2 Hear, O heavens, and give ear, O earth: for the LORD hath spoken, I have nourished and brought up children, and they have rebelled against me.3 The ox knoweth his owner, and the ass his master's crib: but Israel doth not know, my people doth not consider.4 Ah sinful nation, a people laden with iniquity, a seed of evildoers, children that are corrupters: they have forsaken the LORD, they have provoked the Holy One of Israel unto anger, they are gone away backward.5 Why should ye be stricken any more? ye will revolt more and more: the whole head is sick, and the whole heart faint.6 From the sole of the foot even unto the head there is no soundness in it; but wounds, and bruises, and putrifying sores: they have not been closed, neither bound up, neither mollified with ointment.7 Your country is desolate, your cities are burned with fire: your land, strangers devour it in your presence, and it is desolate, as overthrown by strangers.8 And the daughter of Zion is left as a cottage in a vineyard, as a lodge in a garden of cucumbers, as a besieged city.9 Except the LORD of hosts had left unto us a very small remnant, we should have been as Sodom, and we should have been like unto Gomorrah.10 Hear the word of the LORD, ye rulers of Sodom; give ear unto the law of our God, ye people of Gomorrah.11 To what purpose is the multitude of your sacrifices unto me? saith the LORD: I am full of the burnt offerings of rams, and the fat of fed beasts; and I delight not in the blood of bullocks, or of lambs, or of he goats.12 When ye come to appear before me, who hath required this at your hand, to tread my courts?13 Bring no more vain oblations; incense is an abomination unto me; the new moons and sabbaths, the calling of assemblies, I cannot away with; it is iniquity, even the solemn meeting.14 Your new moons and your appointed feasts my soul hateth: they are a trouble unto me; I am weary to bear them.15 And when ye spread forth your hands, I will hide mine eyes from you: yea, when ye make many prayers, I will not hear: your hands are full of blood.16 Wash you, make you clean; put away the evil of your doings from before mine eyes; cease to do evil;18 Come now, and let us reason together, saith the LORD: though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they be red like crimson, they shall be as wool.17 Learn to do well; seek judgment, relieve the oppressed, judge the fatherless, plead for the widow.19 If ye be willing and obedient, ye shall eat the good of the land:20 But if ye refuse and rebel, ye shall be devoured with the sword: for the mouth of the LORD hath spoken it.21 How is the faithful city become an harlot! it was full of judgment; righteousness lodged in it; but now murderers.


Based upon the above text the Children of Israel were in alot of trouble, I always like that there is nothing new under the sun.  But to go a little deeper, "if nothing changes, Nothing Changes.  

Fast forward we are now living in 21st century dealing with zenith speed in technology and have evolved that if you were to read the above text you'd think the author Isaiah was describing this century.  I enjoy reviewing and posting archives of older posts from Empowering Spirits but lately its been a tug at my heart torn to deliver a word that's really not mine.  I'm not claiming vision or even that GOD whispered in my ear.  Can't even describe what this is exactly so I'll just give GOD the great IAM all the Glory take nothing for myself.
The politics, the people, the music, the movies and television seem to reflect a whole different world from the one I grew up in and alot of us "Boomers" I'm a late boomer born in the 60's are catching our breath just to keep up which brings me to my current condition my profession is now as contractor and previously a civil service government employee I've tried to reinvent myself as times changed so I've always been sort of nosey and tech savvy.  Always wanted to rise above my peers on my level not yours. See my journey has brought me closer due to circumstances all beyond my control to my inner spiritual being and connected me directly to the source.  I'm not a minister not really interested in that field but I am interested in what the Basic Instructions Before Leaving Earth has planted inside of me, a vision to interpret and see the world as it relates to that Book.

So I really was wrestling with this blog because I'm just gonna type and let it all flow, then when I read it for edit and my editing skills are very mediocre cause I'm not a journalist either I majored in Sociolgy with an eye on pre-med when I found out the math was involved and cadavers changed my whole life went in a direction opposite of that didn't finish college and had scholarships but I was very sharp in my thinking and Richard Nixon did more for our black community with the CETA programs backed by federal dollars gave alot of us a leg up even our community leaders who sponsored these summer/winter jobs programs for youth in the inner cities you could get a work permit at 14 and have enough summer pay to buy clothes and shoes for fall or you save it pay your parents cause my mother always made me give her something.  Contribute to the family.  We've lost that in our homes and here in our Nation.

America is great we have evolved over time but not atoned for there is so much harm that has been swept up under the Constitutional rug.  I just feel so compelled can't knock this nation either because I love my country and know no other, yet my curiosty caused me to do some research and what I discovered about myself, my family, and then overall community was from the time our ancestors got to this continent up til now, we never left most of us don't even know who we really are.  It struck me because alot of urban blacks can't afford the best of anything we have HMO's not private doctors once upon a time we did but not in the 21st century they use to come to your home and if your parents didn't have all the money it was okay RIP Dr. Robinson, and you trusted him he trusted you the family paid the bill.  But unless you were bleeding or couldn't breath like me I had ashthma you had the home remedies.  Things have changed but nothing changed let me dig deeper so you don't think I'm rambling.  If you compare our plight as a race with other immigrants who were invited to come and how well they weren't received America always made you work hard for your dreams but if you had some advantages it was somewhat easier vs. slaves who didn't migrate but were brought here from the distance in ships stacked upon one another it struck me that I can't smell my own underarms when I'm musty what must've been their experience yet 200+years later their children, children, children, children don't even know who they are.  

When you don't know who you are you tend to identify or adapt to the environment take on the languages accents and ways of the natives funny things I found out that Africans were coming here years before Columbus trading with the Native Americans and had settled here with them Cherokee tribe South and West Indians are proof of that.  Yet the slaves struggled to pioneer without any assistance from their masters after they were freed they opened up the boarder and allowed Europeans more access which disallowed the freemasons who were skilled and black from being hired and they couldn't earn a decent wage so it was easier to be a servant and get paid if you got paid.  Cause you have to understand they existed many, many years in the 18th and 19th Century without any human rights.  I am one of those children, and I don't know who I am what tribe and tongue colors that represent my family or Africans have family Crest and tribal dynasties yet I can't relate to any of that.  One of my friends who was from Liberia laughed at one day because I was wearing a afrocentric sweater it was beautiful she said "what tribe does those colors belong too", I said huh? She laughed out loud and said you black americans really don't know nothing about who you are then she told me those colors belong to a tribe in Africa she thought I knew.  In other words, she was testing me.

Now we read above about the Children of Israel well through time man has grossly lied about the true Children of Israel Hebrews but it's okay cause we still all related at the end of the day but I noticed that the darker children on this earth have always suffered at the hand of some regime or government do your research like I did if you feel something about this blog.  Because this is basically how I'm gonna pause cause it's always more to come, in 1938 Adolf Hitler who was a monster and beast killed alot of Jewish people the Holocaust was horriffic no words to describe it was unhuman to say the least and I believe each culture has suffered and GOD who loves us all seen all of that and put favor on America to as King David with a small but mighty we stood up against that monster and won but to atone for all they had suffered UN was established and settlement was built to repatriat them to Israel which is they're homeland except it's not, not really but they are converted and loyal to their faith as were the Children of Israel who were forced out Temple was destroyed all that's left now in 21st century is the waling wall where the Rabi's pray.  But accommodations were made alot of them from Germany had already come over to the "New World" and did movies and films, scientist, authors, philosophers like Dr. Freud.  We owe alot of the great things about our country to their creativity and vision of America but to save time I'll just make my point.  African Americans who were grossly mistreated and maybe not in the methods Adolf Hitler used but to be stripped of your heritage, your native tongue, not be allowed to read and write, eating scrapes pig feet chitterlings, neckbones and watching the master take liberties with a mans wife or even the master wife wanted the stud it happened did you see Roots and that was just one mans story.  12 years a slave was one mans story well it was millions of us here during 18 and 19th centuries who don't know who we are so our last names became whoever owned us.  Think about that and when jewish people came they changed their names so anglos wouldn't discriminate against them they happened to be one cut above us in regard to position in life here in America, they were disrespected and hated too but they had one option a right to duel citizenship and to go to Israel if they wanted Black people don't know where to go they never ever offered to get the Continent of Africa to even designate a piece of land for African Americans you have to spend thousands of dollars just to find out what tribe you belong too and even then it's inconclusive.  So all that being said why is it that we've ALL RACES become resentful and entitled?  Why 
Corinthians 13:4-7

This is a description of Agape Love. It is described as being patient, kind, truthful, unselfish, trusting, believing, hopeful, and enduring. It is not jealous, boastful, arrogant, rude, selfish, or angry. True love never fails. The description perfectly fits God's love toward us, and should be the way we love each other and God. However, I have never met any person who perfectly fulfills this biblical definition of love. The Bible says that this unconditional love is more important than everything else (a partial list includes oratory ability, prophecy, knowledge, faith, philanthropy and hope). All of these things, which are "good" things, will pass away. Only love is eternal, since love will be the basis of eternal life. In fact, when Jesus was asked what the greatest commandment was, He said, "YOU SHALL LOVE THE LORD YOUR GOD WITH ALL YOUR HEART, AND WITH ALL YOUR SOUL, AND WITH ALL YOUR MIND." (Matthew 22:37)10 He then added that the second most important law was "YOU SHALL LOVE YOUR NEIGHBOR AS YOURSELF." Jesus said that the entire law was dependent upon these two commandments
To be continued I love you all, #SHOWSOMELOVE

The most famous biblical chapter on love is from 1 Corinthians:

If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing. Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. (1 Corinthians 13:1-13)

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Tuesday, February 10, 2015

The Valley of Dry Bones



"Son of man, can these bones live?"

 Ezekiel 37:1-9, 3:4-10 

1 The hand of the LORD was upon me, and he brought me out in the Spirit of the LORD and set me down in the middle of the valley; it was full of bones. 2 And he led me around among them, and behold, there were very many on the surface of the valley, and behold, they were very dry. 3 And he said to me, "Son of man, can these bones live?" And I answered, "O Lord GOD, you know." 4 Then he said to me, "Prophesy over these bones, and say to them, O dry bones, hear the word of the LORD. 5 Thus says the Lord GOD to these bones: Behold, I will cause breath to enter you, and you shall live.

9 Then he said to me, "Prophesy to the breath; prophesy, son of man, and say to the breath, Thus says the Lord GOD: Come from the four winds, O breath, and breathe on these slain, that they may live." 10 So I prophesied as he commanded me, and the breath came into them, and they lived and stood on their feet, an exceedingly great army.

4 Then He said to me: "Son of man, go to the house of Israel and speak My words to them. 5 For you are not being sent to a people of unintelligible speech or difficult language but to the house of Israel. 6 [You are] not [being sent] to many peoples of unintelligible speech or difficult language, whose words you cannot understand. No doubt, if I sent you to them, they would listen to you. 7 But the house of Israel will not want to listen to you because they do not want to listen to Me. For the whole house of Israel is hardheaded and hardhearted. 8 Look, I have made your face as hard as their faces and your forehead as hard as their foreheads. 9 I have made your forehead like a diamond, harder than flint. Don't be afraid of them or discouraged by [the look on] their faces, even though they are a rebellious house."

10 Next He said to me: "Son of man, listen carefully to all My words that I speak to you and take [them] to heart.



TRANSISTION/ACCEPTANCE-SELF LOVE

 I went through my process of letting go of a bad relationship it hurt. Going through, growing through, and living on the other side was like shedding skin.

The reason why it hurt me was because of my commitment raised my tolerance level to pain. I did do the necessary footwork to plant a seed for growth inwardly. I cried about this and prayed and GOD revealed to me almost as an epiphany experience. That I truly did love this person with his defects and assets too, but if he wasn't willing to acknowledge that there exist a problem how could he become willing to change his ways.  I wasn't willing to come down to his level and he wasn't capable of meet me halfway.

Well, I had to change, my mind, my attitude towards him which evolved from resentment to forgiveness.I held onto the relationship even after he had left, hoping for an apology or closure waiting for his voice to say he's wrong... Wasn't growing it was lingering(wallowing inside my head);Ultimately, I would still be in a relationship. All by myself, with a ex-lover living rent free inside of my emotions, my mind I couldn't begin any new romance. Until I could Let Go of the former relationship completely to allow my heart, mind, and body to finally go back in sync. 

I stood up and trusted what GOD has purposed for me that I'm to be honored, adored, loved just as HE loves me and that I'm an exceptionally gifted Black Woman with much to offer.

Let GO Let GOD



 Finally, GOD allowed me to mature to a level of self acceptance to become willing myself to change and let HIM work on me.... I'm a Kings daughter who deserves the best GOD grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change (other folks) and the courage to change the things that I can (me), and the WISDOM to know the difference.  Stop trying to get folks to come up to where you're at if you lack patience to allow them to grow. 

Don't let anyone with a personality disorder affect your life. They can cause harm.. Words do hurt and over time and can Mame....


Believe in yourself enough know your value despite what anyone says. I know most men often when they're angry of cornered love to refer to us Ladies as "ah you crazy" and use all sorts of superlatives to support such asscine behavior when the conversations get serious or when they can't respond rationally. 

For some males this is a defense mechanism what other best way to stop the dialog is by means of  offense "ATTACK, push the button" out comes the buzz words that tend to take you most of us off our square. Poof here comes "Crazy" we often play right into their hands... well Stand! Stand firm in all your convictions and don't let nobody bring you down...

 Read the article below for it's content. Love yourself enough to not disregard the material try to open your mind up to this.





Personality Disorders and Relationships

List of personality disorders defined in the DSM

The DSM-IV lists ten personality disorders, grouped into three clusters. The DSM also contains a category for behavioral patterns that do not match these ten disorders, but nevertheless exhibit characteristics of a personality disorder. This category is labeled Personality Disorder NOS (Not Otherwise Specified).

Cluster A (odd or eccentric disorders)

Paranoid personality disorder: characterized by irrational suspicions and mistrust of others
Schizoid personality disorder: lack of interest in social relationships, seeing no point in sharing time with others
Schizotypal personality disorder: also avoids social relationships, though out of a fear of people

Cluster B (dramatic, emotional, or erratic disorders)

Antisocial personality disorder: "pervasive disregard for the law and the rights of others."
Borderline personality disorder: extreme "black and white" thinking, instability in relationships, self-image, identity and behavior
Histrionic personality disorder: "pervasive attention-seeking behavior including inappropriate sexual seductiveness and shallow or exaggerated emotions"
Narcissistic personality disorder: "a pervasive pattern of grandiosity, need for admiration, and a lack of empathy"

Cluster C (anxious or fearful disorders)

Avoidant personality disorder: social inhibition, feelings of inadequacy, extreme sensitivity to negative evaluation and avoidance of social interaction
Dependent personality disorder: pervasive psychological dependence on other people.
Obsessive-compulsive personality disorder (not the same as obsessive-compulsive disorder): characterized by rigid conformity to rules, moral codes, and excessive orderliness
History
The concept of personality disorders goes back to at least the ancient Greeks,[2] and even earlier to the ancient Egyptians, such as the Ebers papyrus.[3]

Various types of personality disorders were later described by medieval Arabic psychological thinkers,[4][5] and many more have been discovered in modern times.


Studies on clusters
A study of almost 600 male college students, averaging almost 30 years of age and who were not drawn from a clinical sample, examined the relationship between childhood experiences of sexual and physical abuse and presently reported personality disorder symptoms. Childhood abuse histories were found to be definitively associated with greater levels of symptomatology. Severity of abuse was found to be statistically significant, but clinically negligible, in symptomatology variance spread over Cluster A, B and C scales.[6]

Child abuse and neglect consistently evidence themselves as antecedent risks to the development of personality disorders in adulthood.[citation needed] In this particular study, efforts were taken to match retrospective reports of abuse with a clinical population that had demonstrated psychopathology from childhood to adulthood who were later found to have experienced abuse and neglect. The sexually abused group demonstrated the most consistently elevated patterns of psychopathology. Officially verified physical abuse showed an extremely strong role in the development of antisocial and impulsive behavior. On the other hand, cases of abuse of the neglectful type that created childhood pathology were found to be subject to partial remission in adulthood.[7]

In 2005, psychologists Belinda Board and Katarina Fritzon at the University of Surrey, UK, interviewed and gave personality tests to high-level British executives and compared their profiles with those of criminal psychiatric patients at Broadmoor Hospital in the UK. They found that three out of eleven personality disorders were actually more common in managers than in the disturbed criminals:

histrionic personality disorder: including superficial charm, insincerity, egocentricity and manipulation
narcissistic personality disorder: including grandiosity, self-focused lack of empathy for others, exploitativeness and independence.
obsessive-compulsive personality disorder: including perfectionism, excessive devotion to work, rigidity, stubbornness and dictatorial tendencies.
They described the business people as successful psychopaths and the criminals as unsuccessful psychopaths.



GOD Bless til next time

Pray for eternal Peace, Grace, and #SHOWSOMELOVE

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Wednesday, November 16, 2005

I GOT FLOWERS TODAY


"YOU TAKE MY HAND AND I'LL TAKE YOUR HAND BABY, TOGETHER WE'LL GET AWAY... THIS MUCH SADNESS IS TO MUCH SORROW, IT'S IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO STAY. SHA LA LA THE WEATHER SHE COULD DRAG ME OVER THE RAINBOW AND SEND ME AWAY"
"DOWN BY THE RIVER I SHOT MY BABY.... SHOT HER AWAY DOWN BY THE RIVER....."

THE LATE DRUMMER BUDDY MILES - 1970 (Song - Down by the River FROM THE ALBUM BUDDY MILES CHANGES

We had our first argument last night, and he said a lot of cruel things that really hurt me. I know he is sorry and didn't mean the things he said, because he sent me flowers today. I got flowers today. It wasn't our anniversary or any other special day. Last night he threw me into a wall and started to choke me. It seemed like a nightmare, I couldn't believe it was real. I woke up this morning sore and bruised all over. I know he must be sorry cause he sent me flowers today. I got flowers today, and it wasn't mother's day or any other special day. Last night, he beat me up again, it was much worse than all the other times. If I leave him, what will I do? How will I take care of my kids? What about money? I'm afraid of him and scared to leave. But I know he must be sorry because he sent me flowers today. I got flowers today. Today was a very special day. It was the day of my funeral! Last night, he finally killed me. He beat me to death. If only I had gathered enough courage to leave him, I would not have gotten flowers today.......If you are against domestic abuse, please pass this along to everyone, NOT just women.

submitted by: Shelle via - Lannie Hardy 2005

Domestic Violence is ugly, and it in no way does it demonstrate love or a kind of morbid affection for it's victim(s). Most of us either know of or have been touched by this vicious cycle. Growing up in a home where I witnessed first hand how ugly it can get on all levels. Now to add to the agony we have brothers on the DL (down low). It's time to open up the lines of communication - Can you stand the pain? 

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